Idon''''twanttoadmitthefactthatIdonotknow,atall,everythingthatshapesthefollowingdays,howthefutureofminewilllooklike

PerhapsI''''vebeenthroughsomanyscratchesiawithirreversibleabrasionsandmars

AndIdon''''tdaretothink,toenter,again,thehardship

SoIchoosetonotfaceitthewayIusedtobefore

Evengethemodeofmylifestyleandmy''''things''''thatmustbedone

Toletmevincemyselfbemorerexedandsoothemyrashnessandungainliness

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ButaremyinternalstateofmindaalstatusreallyassuagedasIsupposed?

Whatisthehetitleofmylifechapter?"..."times?

活在幸福中

我们常常

活在幸福中信服中、理想中

却浑然不知而忧虑、忧郁

有时候甚至以为连梦境都堪b现实

其实现实世界已经b梦境无论噩梦或一般梦好很多了

我指的「好」是谓尚顺利的状态

没有过重的累赘负担、思想紊乱、结绪綑杂

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或能使人心境躁乱狂烦、惴惴不安、好似厄兆末日来临的喘息困难

都还算是「好」的至少是平稳祥和的、真实透晰的

只要没有出现梦境中超乎现实、不可能发生、光怪陆离且荒诞无俚头的情况

真实世界的纷扰杂语、喧嚣羁绊、红尘俗事皆正常、日常、平常、经常

每日醒来

应当感恩

垂垂梦帘里的一切都没有发生

Malpositionofattitudeandoccurrence

Onceyoustarttofeeloptimistic,badthingshappen

Butifyoutakeeverythingtooseriouslyandpessimisticallyasifyouareasepuldlugubriousbeiively"good"thingsthatrepresentso-calledserendipitousfelicitousness,happen,unfortunately

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Soyoudecidetorathernotpossessanykiions,impressionsorpredisforthepurposeofnotbeingdisappointedagainandagainwhateverthingsturnoutgoodorbad

Justdoyourbesttostayranddon''''tleanonanyperspectiveofthingsthathappe

Untilyoueventuallyfinditdifficulttomaintaiitudetowardsthefollowingthings

It''''shardtocatchamodetobeiainstateofmindwhichletsyoufeelheroptimistiorpessimistic

It''''ssimplyimpossibletonotthinkaboutitandgivesubjectiveceptionsaboutthefuturethingsbecauseweiablylookforwardtoforeseeiure,alwaysexplwaystohaveaneweraerlifeallthetimeandwaitforittoe,goodorbad